Friday, January 09, 2009

Sigh

It's amazing how you spend time with someone and fall madly in love, but they can barely stand you.

to say i can barely stand you is not a true statement. i love you more than anything. i am not who i should be. and that hurts.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Hope

When hope is lost there is nothing

Hope lost
Is
Devastation
Born

Wrong turns
Wrong choices
Wrong existence

Not life

Just Existing

Bandaid 2

Yes, my wounds are self inflicted and they have spread and infected the very one that I love dearly.

I pray that your soul does not die but heals.

My soul
Tormented
Torn

I don't deserve you
You don't deserve the treatment you received

Your self is worth more
Your soul is worth more

There is not enough sorry to make things better

In a crowded room emptiness and loneliness are my companions

My smile empty
My heart empty

I walk alone

Pardon

I have caused pain
I have caused tears
I have caused hate
I have caused death

Mine awaits

Bandaid

Bandaids just cover the wound so that nothing gets in to create an infection.

Infection
Wounds fester
Spreading poison
Giant bandaid

Wound cleaned
Not healed
Still festering

Amputation
Inevitable

Lost

There will never be a love like the one I lost. The one I screwed up. A hole in my heart, never to be filled. A love that will NEVER be duplicated.