Thursday, December 03, 2009

I'm not feeling good today. I need to get away, to a place where I can meditate and commune with nature.

Monday, November 09, 2009


Like morning dew
Like cold water on a hot summer day
Beginnings are fresh and needed for life to grow
Thank You!

Sunday, October 11, 2009


I am making this blog private. Thought I could get back into blogging but I am not feeling it. I have lost the desire to write, instead I am keeping things close to my chest and heart. Time to hit the gym and get to bicycling. Maybe one day I will return to blogging...not sure where I will blog but for now I am taking a break.

Sunday, September 20, 2009


Two nights ago I dreamt of her. We made love and it was sweet. She cried. I hope she is doing well.

Friday, January 09, 2009


It's amazing how you spend time with someone and fall madly in love, but they can barely stand you.

to say i can barely stand you is not a true statement. i love you more than anything. i am not who i should be. and that hurts.

Sunday, January 04, 2009


When hope is lost there is nothing

Hope lost

Wrong turns
Wrong choices
Wrong existence

Not life

Just Existing

Bandaid 2

Yes, my wounds are self inflicted and they have spread and infected the very one that I love dearly.

I pray that your soul does not die but heals.

My soul

I don't deserve you
You don't deserve the treatment you received

Your self is worth more
Your soul is worth more

There is not enough sorry to make things better

In a crowded room emptiness and loneliness are my companions

My smile empty
My heart empty

I walk alone


I have caused pain
I have caused tears
I have caused hate
I have caused death

Mine awaits


Bandaids just cover the wound so that nothing gets in to create an infection.

Wounds fester
Spreading poison
Giant bandaid

Wound cleaned
Not healed
Still festering



There will never be a love like the one I lost. The one I screwed up. A hole in my heart, never to be filled. A love that will NEVER be duplicated.