Randomness

I wonder if people who hurt others through lies and deceit walk around with a heaviness inside. If not, I wonder how they do it because I am in pain. I feel like I will never have true joy in my life again, just a life of existing, and that's not living at all.

Breathe...Breathe...Breathe

COLOR

SHADES OF BLUE, BLACK AND GREY
NOTHINGNESS
HOLLOW
SHADES OF GREY

STANDING
IN THE MIDST
OF
SHAME
ALOOFNESS
SHADES OF BLACK

BRUISED
BROKEN
UNABLE TO FLY
NEAR
THE
END
SHADES OF BLUE
COVERED IN A
CANOPY
OF
DEATH

Random Thoughts Not Too Random

Another year is coming to an end. A year full of misgivings, mistakes, heart ache, pain, sorrow, tears, heart break, hope lost...a year of confusion. I wish there was some way I could turn back the hands of time and do things differently, but sadly, I can not.

As 2008 comes to an end, I look towards 2009, wondering. There are goals to be set and accomplished. No more letting laziness and procrastination take control. With the Creator at the helm of my ship, I will sail waters uncharted, climb mountains rugged, travel roads wide and narrow, face my fears head on and keep moving forward.

2008...a year to learn from.

2009...a year to grow and blossom

QUESTION

NOW WHAT?

Lost

somewhere between the grey skies

and muddy waters

that is where i am

with no light at the end of the tunnel

lost