I'm not feeling good today. I need to get away, to a place where I can meditate and commune with nature.

Beginnings

Like morning dew
Like cold water on a hot summer day
Beginnings are fresh and needed for life to grow
Thank You!

Private

I am making this blog private. Thought I could get back into blogging but I am not feeling it. I have lost the desire to write, instead I am keeping things close to my chest and heart. Time to hit the gym and get to bicycling. Maybe one day I will return to blogging...not sure where I will blog but for now I am taking a break.

Dream

Two nights ago I dreamt of her. We made love and it was sweet. She cried. I hope she is doing well.

Sigh

It's amazing how you spend time with someone and fall madly in love, but they can barely stand you.

to say i can barely stand you is not a true statement. i love you more than anything. i am not who i should be. and that hurts.

Hope

When hope is lost there is nothing

Hope lost
Is
Devastation
Born

Wrong turns
Wrong choices
Wrong existence

Not life

Just Existing

Bandaid 2

Yes, my wounds are self inflicted and they have spread and infected the very one that I love dearly.

I pray that your soul does not die but heals.

My soul
Tormented
Torn

I don't deserve you
You don't deserve the treatment you received

Your self is worth more
Your soul is worth more

There is not enough sorry to make things better

In a crowded room emptiness and loneliness are my companions

My smile empty
My heart empty

I walk alone